You know all those cheesy cliché one liners that are supposed to motivate you past your fear of failure?
They really do motivate me for a moment. Sadly, a moment isn’t enough.
I don’t think I realized how afraid of failure I was until recently…Ben and I were driving through the hills of Tennessee on one of our famous highways, talking about some recent failures. We want to get better at hearing from God, but we’ve made some mistakes and we were talking through them. We’ve made a lot of them through the years. Eventually I blurted out in tears:
“I don’t want to get it wrong. I HATE getting it wrong. It’s easier just not to try, because then I know I WON’T get it wrong.”
Right there in the passenger seat, I made up my mind that I wasn’t going to try anymore.
Ben gave me the saddest face ever. And he had the right. There it was, another one of my ugly truths.
But really, it is easier not to try. If I don’t try, I don’t fail. And when I don’t fail, I won’t disappoint anybody. I can stay in my little corner and watch others step up in my place.
But isn’t that just so sad?
The other day, it took my daughter an HOUR to put on her shirt. AN HOUR.
90 percent of that time was spent telling me why SHE JUST CAN’T .
on and on and on it went.
1 of those minutes included her actually trying (and failing.)
In the last minute? She succeeded.
I wonder how much of our time is spent thinking of reasons why we can’t do something.
I can’t write in a blog because I don’t want to fail. I could list a million reasons.
I didn’t want Ben to pursue his dreams in starting his business because… what if he fails? What will happen to us financially? Again, I could go on.
But us not trying is ultimately saying we don’t believe in God and his endless mercy. HIS grace. Or his resources, encouragement, or promises. We could even go as far as saying
“God doesn’t believe in us”.
And as Christians, we know that simply isn’t true.
Once we get solid in our beauty before him, our value and worth won’t be the sum of our failures. It will stay displayed through his ultimate sacrifice (the cross).
We will feel free to try and fail and get back up to…. fail again! Eventually, we will get it right because:
He is the one holding our hand and cheering us on. He is the one who will shape and refine us, reveal our insecurities and replace them with his truth. He is the ultimate teacher.
Failure doesn’t seem so bad anymore.
Try. Fail. Repeat.
Paul disobeyed God and decided he would go to Jerusalem to preach the gospel. A worthy endeavor, but it was a wrong one. God told him not to go, and the prophets eventually stopped trying to persuade him.
He went and ended up in prison.
You know what happened afterwards? He wrote some pretty famous books of the bible.
Let’ s put our faith in God.
He is able to make us stand and succeed. He can steer us in the right path when we trust in his ways and make his word our path!
Jude 1:24 (NLT)
Now all glory to God, who is able to keep you from falling away and will bring you with great joy into his glorious presence without a single fault.